DaRkNeSs FaLLz..

2008-12-10T23:21:00.000-08:00

It feels great to b loved n taken care of. Nevertheless, there's still lots of ups & downs. But I believe we can work things out together so long as we both try. I noe e route ahead will not b easy, but wif u walkin e path ahead wif me, we'll make it.

Reali cant tahan e big mouth, 2 headed snake, hypocritial, selfish, old gay. I cursed u!! U'll definately haf yr retibution u pitiful thing.

2008-07-08T21:11:00.000-07:00

finally i pluck up e courage to tell him wat i wanted to sae for so long.. finally i harden my heart.. finally i made him cry.. finally i'm free.. finally i'm happy..

i'm so selfish.... bleh.. but all i wanted was jus to b happy...................

2008-05-29T09:42:00.000-07:00

y do ppl dun treasure e things tt are before them. instead they often think tt e grass is owaes greener on e other side. but sometimes, when they find out they're wrong it's too late. not everything and everytime can start all over again

omens are showin, so y ignore them n continue to fall deeper? haf alr tried but din work out so y waste time n effort to repeat e process all over?

treat u good one dun cherish, treat u bad one, e more u wanna persuit. something is very wrong.. or m i tired of everything alr?

2008-04-11T20:12:00.000-07:00

Why try to hold on to what is already gone?

Because, it is beautiful and life wont be the same without it.

But different doesnt mean it have to be worse.

Dragging today into tomorrow never works. Uprooted it withers with each step until we end up living in a shrivelled yesterday. We won't see the todays that come to us one at a time, every one waiting to cram gifts into our hands.

To take what we are offered, we must first put down what we were given yesterday because we only have 2 hands.

To keep saying thank you for the gifts offered is to live with gratitude. But we also must remember to then release them in the same spirit.

2008-03-15T06:04:00.000-07:00

sometimes e truth can reali hurts...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOYO~~

2008-02-18T06:13:00.000-08:00

do u noe dere's so much tt i wanna sae but i cant find e courage to?

do u noe i've bought u smth which i nvr dare to gif u?

do u noe how i wish i could turn back time?

do u noe how i wish i've nvr met u at all?

do u noe how much i'm hurtin inside?

u'll nvr noe...

2008-02-14T11:13:00.000-08:00

hart broken.. it's reali tirin to act as if i'm ok.. thx for e memories.. i'm sorry tt i've hurt u again. i din mean to. i swear.. i miss ridin so much..

2008-01-15T19:38:00.000-08:00

yeah!!! finally FRIDAY IS COMING!!!!!

goin to BKK wif Raf & mummy... den next mth goin to BKK again wif Tony, Anthony, Vincent & Seng. Shoppin here i come!!!

My 21st Bdae there's so many ppl on my list lo.. plus CNY comin needa prepare ang bao for mummy.. jialat sure broke..

LET ME STRUCK LOTTERY

2007-12-11T18:35:00.000-08:00

so so tired... old liao sia.. everytime off day rain.. sadded.... got my rectifier n battery fixed ytd.. broke again sia.. later still needa do insurance.. *faints*

I HATE 5 STARS!!!

2007-11-14T01:34:00.000-08:00

finally sorted out my thoughts n feelings..

nobody treats me better den he does.. i know he really loves me alot to tolerate all my nonsense, scoldings and also, my unpredictable mood swings at times. whatever he does, he had my interest at heart.

even if i'm e one at fault, he'll give in to me by admittin is his. so sweet right..

so i rewarded him with a SHOEI helmet.. one for him n one for myself.. his is Z-5 DIABLOIC ZERO & my Z-5 MATRICK total 900 bucks sia.. last year his bday i also give him helmet.. haha.. we aiming for jackets for touring now... whee~

DIABOLIC ZERO SIDE

DIABOLIC ZERO BACK

MATRICK SIDE

MATRICK BACK

2007-10-28T12:20:00.000-07:00

damn lo.. i'm so confused bout wat i'm feelin..

when u r wif someone, y will u still feel for somebody else..

2007-09-27T05:52:00.000-07:00

woohoo.. managed to escape death the 2nd time.. but pay a high price though..

accident again on 10 sep, last day of 7th month.. haiz.. duno y go straight also can hit kerb.. somemore aim the lamp post zun zun..

broke my collar bone, 2 ribs & punctured my lung which caused internal bleedin.

58 days of hospitalization leave.. shiok!!

2007-08-23T19:43:00.000-07:00

finally i understand le.. began to c the story.. what dad said is all a lie to make him feel better being wif someone else. it's jus an excuse for him to betray mum. it hurts so much to c mum cry.. she muz b takin it damn hard. she has been waitin all these years for his return to the family. but that day wun ever come le.. so y cry over a man that hurt u?

took urgent leave tt day when she found out everything. already expected she would react this way.. thus i have lost the courage to tell her the truth. but the truth hurts. brought her out on my bike.. first time i pillion her. was so afraid that she fall off the bike man.. we went out to walk walk cos i noe she will keep tinkin bout it if she stays at home. tink she's much better now..

so glad that raf got a job le.. pay is not bad.. hope he can guai guai work.

ytd was damn sick.. vomitted for 5 times n my world is like spinnin lo.. doc sae is cos of my irregular eatin timing. but no choice de ma.. work work work = no time to eat.

happy birthday in advance..

2007-07-31T23:17:00.000-07:00

so long nvr blog le.. i wonder still got ppl readin my blog anot.. haha..

promoted to product-in-charge for Thailand, Bali, Cambodia & Vietnam. such a huge jump man.. cant reali handle so much work load.. got so many things to do man.. farelist, promotion fare, ads, in house fare, road show n natas fair.. omg.....

plus the family shit i'm facing.. sld i listen to dad or trust mum? so confuse.. so scare.. i hope wat dad sae is shit, all lies.. but y lie? y?? cos of that ***** ?? who m i? y like tt sia.. both so old le den play all these stunts.. got think bout us ma.. wat bout all those past? where we whole family go supermarket at Centerpoint, go Orchard Road during Christmas & the way we nvr fail to celebrate everyone's birthdae in the family.. DUN MESS UP MY LIFE!

thanks raf for fufilling yr promise. i love the hotair balloon ride. but without u wun b nice le. so thx so much! thx for bein there to comfort me thru all this..

tt's all for now.. i will post pics soon.. now super lazy.. haha..

2007-07-06T02:09:00.000-07:00

attachment finally ended le.. yeah~

the portfolio that i did ah.. haha.. reali power.. do till like 5+am den still ride in the rain jus to send it to TP. finali get it over and done wif.

now continuing at Five Stars.. damn boring lo the job. very desk bound. 1.4 k den 3 more mths increment 200 more. den slowly climb to product den blah blah blah.. very stable and i noe how i will progress.. but my interest was nvr in the travel line..

therefore..........
when tony call me up to tell me bout his plan, i was shaken.. to partner him in this pet hub thingy.. it will be at kallang, a big open space. we'll b leasing the place out too.. operations like pet supermart, vet, pet cafe, studio for pets and humans, dog training and sale of puppies will be conducted. OMG... like such a huge project.. 2 million plus of money will b thrown in.. n i will be given shares too.. the location quite eye catchy.. but i still haf my concerns.. will it succeed? so confuse.. but i tink i will take the risk, if i dun now den when sia... when i old ah.. haha.. pay wise tink will the same ba.. but got commission per dog groomed. thing is.. resignation letter to five stars.. damn i hate doing all this.. but haf to if i wan my last month pay. wahhaha..

1 yr wif raf le.. damn.. kena cheated by him for 1 yr le.. haha... no la.. to say the truth he's nice, always giving in to me n bearing my nonsense. but..... WHERE'S MY FLOWERS & HOT AIR BALLOON!!!! K LA LOVE U LA.. transformer nice hor bi..

jus came back from tioman.. was a so-so trip. went wif raf, ru n ter. tink is my 3rd trip wif ru le.. keke.. super tan now la.. jus eat play sleep for the 3 full daes.. OH DEAR.. but holidae is like tt de hor.. haha.. bought tis damn cool glasses.. love it man.. next trip sld b either taiwan or barcelona. wee~ will post the pic soon..

hmmm... actuali i saw tis person at planet. actuali heard bout him also la.. someone said he mature le, den aft tt heard he was jailed. hai..
he lost weight.. shave his hair.. all tis dun matter anymore actuali.. i jus hope tt he's fine now & in the future. hope he dun walk wrong path again. hope he find happiness. hope his family is ok. hope we'll b able to say 'hi' one dae....

2007-06-03T05:17:00.000-07:00

hey hey.. long time no update blog le.. cos reali kinda busy n lazy to blog nowadaes.

so fast my attachment goin to end le.. i guess though it's more busier here as compared to the zoo, but i reali reali learnt alot of things and made alot of fren.

now jane offered me a full time post at the operations department. reali in a dilema whether to take up the damn post. cos i noe it's gonna b very stressful. yet, wanna try something new leh.. cos i reali tired of serving customers, arguing with them, kena scold for unreasonably. the more i serve todae, the more i feel like takin up the job. furthermore, the ppl here mostly r 2 headed snakes, duno who can trust n who cant b. so tired of keepin puttin on a front. omg.. someone save me pls.. but i noe that tis happens everywhere la.. jus gonna deal wif it de. but at least if i at operations i no need to c customer face n definately can learn more. but i confirm will miss some peeps over here.. ppl like xiao b, hao ge, da mian, etc........

2007-04-15T00:45:00.000-07:00

OMG OMG... todae is a bad day.. full of crop up.. gary moh call me while i still sleepin ask me come earlier cos low manpower.. but actually is enuff de leh.. was almost late cos e stupid barrier dun open again.. wth... den i buy season parkin for fuck.. jus reach den ivy bong called sae i got crop up bookin.. but is not i book de.. but i dun blame ivan la.. cos i noe is he tryin to help me get more sales.. lucki can settle.. but still spoil my mood la.. it's like hell now.. so many thai ard.. cos they songkran.. everywhere is water....................

2007-04-14T05:46:00.000-07:00

so sian... another dae of salesless.. haha.. lucki did a charter if not die liao... suay got crop up.. book wrong timing.. so sian... daddy company might bankrupt.. den i still book wrong.. haiyo.. sld b more carefully next time.. now even smoke also got b thrifty liao..

2007-04-12T04:04:00.000-07:00

yesterdae finally off le.. can off without havin ppl to pao dou me.. went to renew season parkin, book class 3 test date, took my insurance n log card, change chain.. went to a jap restaurant at pasir ris cc to celebrate ah boy's birthday.. it was not a happy meal.. cos smth real bad happened.. duno how to help at all.. reali helpless.. cant imagine tt happenin.. life wld b bad.. kinda sad n duno wat to do.. hai.. best i can do is to take care of myself n dun let myself become a burden.. jus hope attachment to finish faster n help out for e crisis.

2007-03-24T18:44:00.000-07:00

so tired.... almost a month of attachment at 5 stars.. hai.... hmmm... kinda new experience n all.. lotsa new info, new things to learn n last but not least, lotsa of politics, gossips n of course frens..
would sae tt it's kinda like a black market.. family business, bosses and supervisors all kinda...... er.......... jus wish everything will be over soon..

5th apr will b tp test le... got injured again durin my lesson 8.. hopefully by then can recover.

2007-02-08T05:16:00.000-08:00

todae went for my first try for prac 8.. damn i screw it up. but hey.. i'm at prac 8 le. so close to gettin my 2B le. JIAYOU!!

came across a fren's blog.. aft readin.. felt so sad.. wish i could do smth to help, smth to show i care..

gotta redo my attachment for 14 weeks on 1st mar n i've yet to send any resume. damn e com!! owaes break down on me..

so fast tgh for 7mths+ le.. bullyin him more n more each dae.. countless time i scold him, beat him, walk out on him, shoutin at him, showin him face, orderin him this n that, ask him dun do tis dun do tt, feel tt i'm takin him alittle for granted.. just A LITTLE wor.. i still got abit of liang xin de.. but i noe.. if one dae he's not gonna b ard, i'll b so sad and lost.. coz.. i reali reali love u baby.. who tell u sae tt i'm yr mei nu princess, you'll hafta serve me for e rest of yr life i dun care!! MUHAHA..

Hong Kong Trip 2007 Jan

2007-02-05T00:23:00.001-08:00

2007-01-15T22:52:00.000-08:00

As promised..

will b postin some photos..

but some contents are abit gruesome..

so make sure u had yr meals already..

RaF

Wo MeN

MoToR BuAnG

Din cry when i was injured.. But when i haf to tell my mum bout it n when i saw my leg aft e op.. tears jus roll down la..

2007-01-15T22:32:00.000-08:00

hey hey.. todae i finally off le.. but school's gonna start soon.. so sian..

actually meetin candy to compensate her for her bdae de.. in e end.. she cant make it again.. so me, ru n jj met up instead.. took raf wif me.. they were like luffin at us lo... we r not tgh at tt time lo.. was somewhere near his bdae de lo... wahaha.. went to a cafe at bugis to chill.. poor jj is sick.. weak sia... haha...

celebrated raf bdae by first givin him a surprise.. he was frecked out lo.. haha.. went to makan mache.. but they change name le.. call wat village now.. i forgot if we watched movie but we took neoprints.. :]

celebrated christmas at e shop again.. bbq, curry, blah blah.. was sick tt dae.. kinda stress out at work.. louis went mia again.. hoipefully he's fine now..

celebrated jayce bdae at zouk.. tt day damn packed lo.. but bo bian.. she biggest tt dae.. not too bad la.. met her new bf.. smashed cake on his face den i ran off for home.. poor raf sick still accompany me go.. thx lots..

celebrated tony's bdae at tony roma's.. aft which we went to catch deathnote 2.. but some idiot din turn up.. make me watch a 16 bucks movie.. details..... dun wanna tok bout it le.. blah...

countdown to e new yr wif aaron, alvan, tony n raf.. sang our money away at kbox.. wooo...

2006-12-06T20:15:00.000-08:00

todae is e dae!!!
todae is my baby n son Ace's birthday...
will put e pics soon..

2006-10-17T19:34:00.000-07:00

met wif an accident on Fri the 13th. actuali wanted to catch Rob B Hood at Cine de.. in e end ticket sold out le.. so wanted to go to the Cathay to try our luck.. godl knows... met wif accident. was a hit n run accident. e stupid taxi hit us n drove off.. raf's ankle hit e bumper n fractured his leg. my knee kena e rear light. had a really really deep cut. can even c my bone le lo den i dare not look any further le. raf say can open n close e skin. e wound big till can put in a lighter n close back. blood was oozing out lo. raf say my face very pale, i only know i feel faint. was admitted for 4 daes. had an operation and everyday was given a few jabs. now restin at home. still very painful. mc for 23days. if still not ready den extend. so sad my attachment..... jus hope to catch e culprit soon. but i dun demand much la. i jus wan him to get the punishment he deserved cos i know his family will be sad if he's going to be jailed. god bless me n raf to get well soon!!!

2006-10-08T21:38:00.000-07:00

wow.. it's been 2 months plus since i last updated my blog.. been reali reali busy..

my attachment at the zoo had started last month. have to admit that it wasnt as great as i have expected. rather disappointin actuali. worst of all.. had to stand for at least 9 hours everydae. omg.. how can i take it.. stand till i leg sore, backache le.. but no choice...

bike at prac 6 le.. but had been ridin to work le la.. haha... but wanna pass asap.. den i can ride xiaobai wif ease on e road. :) pass my circuit test on second try wif 10 points.

bout bgr.. i'm in a dilema lo.. watever la.. dun wanna tink..

2006-08-23T00:45:00.000-07:00

here to update my blog..
my bike prac at lesson 4 le. it's very fun. inclined plank, pylon n e-brake. sld b able to pass my e-brake n move to prac 5 on e next try. aft prac 5 den is on road le. so exciting. prac 8 den i can ride le. wee~

caught afew great movies recently. of which 2 tt made me cry. e first was Click. everyone is puzzled y i cried over a comedy. but there a touchin part to tt movie which reminded me of my dad. i seriously miss him. miss e time when our family is so close, so warm. though might b not so well-off tt time, but i'm definitely happier. e second movie was The Break-Up. cried when Brook n Gary quarrelled. it is so damn true n i went thru it before so it reminded me bout e past. it's like u r so tired n yet u cook or do smth for yr love one. but yet, he's not appreciative n ask u to wait when u needed his help. when u get pissed, den he offer to help. but it's not e same le.. he help cos u ask him to, not out of initiative. hai.. i guess guys can nvr understand this.

2006-08-16T04:15:00.000-07:00

love is like a rose,

some people longs for it,

yet get pricked by it.

some people see it as beauty,

some see it as poison.

some enjoy the blessings

and the buds bloom for them.

some got hurt by the thorns,

only to be daunted by the painful thorns.

yet some got hurt,

but dare to try again and again,

trying to find the blooming rose.

yet some could not find it,

only to find that the cut got deeper.

2006-08-11T02:23:00.000-07:00

Some say love, it is a river

That drowns the tender reed

Some say love, it is a razor

That leaves your soul to bleed

Some say love, it is a hunger

An endless aching need

I say love, it is a flower

And you its only seed

It's the soul afraid of dreaming,

That never learns to dance

And the soul afraid of waking,

That never takes the chance

It's the one, who won't be taken

Who cannot seem to give

And the soul afraid of dying,

That never learns to live

When the night has been too lonely

And the road has been too long

When you feel that love is only

For the lucky and the strong

Just remember in the winter

Far beneath the bitter snow

Lies the seed that with the sun's love

In the spring becomes the rose

2006-08-04T12:54:00.000-07:00

halo.. i MIA for some time again wor.. finally found time to blog le. jus finish a series of proj deadlines. but more assignment deadlines & exams r coming!!!

some stuff to update ppl who still bother to come to read my blog:
- bought n70.. so far so good. n72 no 3G so din buy.
- injured my leg again & was sent to CGH for x-ray.
- rode on the road thrice to date.
-went to ndp preview wif mum. fireworks were jus so beautiful.. reminds me of e firework at redang...

there r so many ppl i miss.. my geisha, ru yi, moo moo, mr kbox, fcc, jj, phi phi, ru ru, dy dy, nana, fen, mummy, shui jing... i reali miss all of u so much.. miss e time we used to share when everything is so simple. when everyone does not need to care bout so much. how i wish i cld turn back time, so i can jus spend all e happy moments jus once more. girls... we needa club!!!

2006-07-16T22:54:00.000-07:00

halo to peepz. miss me? long time no blog le. so many things happened. update abit ba.

i now at bike prac 3 le. takin my rtt on 27 july. ridin is damn fun. n i already got my bike lobang le. hehe.. soon, i'll b ridin. oh man.. tt's e only thing tt makes me happy.

had a good luff at work yesterdae wif tony n weijian. very long nvr luff le. played pool, work hard tgh, slack at coffee shop. tis is a life i wan man.

brought ace back for quite some time le. reali cant bear to c him dere. n tis time, i reali will make an effort to gif him more time n attention. it's my resposiblilty. tt time brought ace n yoyo to east coast. rafferty send me dere. haha.. yoyo n ace first time sit bike. hehe..

i guess it's e end of everything between me n chris & varian also. some new n some old characters still ard. like gabriel, still here. rafferty.. he reminds of e world cup. damn how can i lose e personal bet, all because of Italy la. haha.. weirong, brandon, jacob, michael, some i dun even remember their names. jus passerbys in life. nothing much.

sch sux as ever. so many deadlines. i cant cope le la. dun wanna care.

wee... goin to buy fone later.. either nokia n70, n71 or n72. most likely is n72. i love e pinky. open my own line. b independent. tt's wat i learnt. i'm stronger le. all thx to ppl who hurt me. also wanna thx ppl who care. tony, my boss, dad, fren. gabriel, who's always here when i'm down, sicked n pissed. rafferty, who always tries to make my dae. thx u ppl. i love u!

2006-07-12T09:24:00.000-07:00

SHIT HAPPENS!!! WTF MAN..

shit u for not understandin me.
shit u for owaes not trustin me.
shit u for scoldin me even when we broke off already and it happens like 2 yrs ago.
shit u for sayin those hurtful stuff.
shit u for bringin pain to me again after 3 yrs.
shit u for makin me sad but yet i cant cry.
shit u for bein such a bastard.

2006-06-28T20:37:00.000-07:00

tUe
went to another clinic cos i'm havin fever. din get better though. slackin at home e whole dae..

wEd
went for bike lesson again. failed again. but tink i improve alot le. did cornerin n ride up to gear 5 liao. but now oni got 1 chop, need another 3 more. n my leg is like more new injuries lo. swelling, feelin e pain even when i walk. aft tt went to sch n found out no class. wtf. den went to cine to sing. den went to da jie's hs eat. she rarely call me go eat de. i smell smth fishy.. den finally got my answer to some qns. yea. i love e feelin of settling everything, so it wun b botherin me.

tHUr
receive terrible news. i lost someone dear to me. but u'll owaes b in my hart. i wanna meet u in heaven again. i miss though those times when we're tgh. all e chit chat n letter writing. i'm so sry i din catch up wif u when i can. now it's all too late. u wun even noe how much u mean to me. it's all too late. wait for me at e other end of the rainbow k?

2006-06-26T05:45:00.000-07:00

oh well been long since i last blog. wanna drop down some tots before i do anything now la.

thUr
i din pass my test. cos e bike too heavy le den keep droppin e bike. mayb cos i din reali eat la. no strength. but anyway.. none of us pass la. but i wun gif up no matter wat. takin it again on wed.

fRi
went to watch movie wif Derrick. watched Silent Hill. lousy show. din reali get wat it was tryin to say. he jus kept askin me bout e past. till i also no mood to watch. so i borrow his shoulder in e cinema cos i needed it at tt pt of time. he c me so sad he sae he wanna whack him. but i sae no need la. no pt sia. he's seriously not worth all e trouble la. den suppose to meet Julie to K de. in e end she tua me. !!! damn pissed. den went to meet family at kovan to makan. mummy bao dou me tell daddy sae i learn bike. he ask if i cld stop, he sae he'll pay me back e money. but i dun wanna promise smth tt i might not b able to fulfill. i even tell him i still smokin. sae all at e same time. aft sayin i feel better sia. when reach home, i saw got police. so shun bian go ask if ppl tag me vulgarity on my blog will how. they sae they will help me check. :)

sAt
went to work. den met Micheal, Dave n Alvin for K at Suntec. POWER!!! ENJOY SIA. den Micheal send me back. talk awhile n haf breakfast cos din reali eat at all. i scare he become e fifth one sia. haha. but he's a nice guy also la. slept at 7+am.

sUn
still went to work. omg. i was so so so tired. but i pulled thru. aft tt still went to K wif Tony, Fen n Wei Jian. tired tired. shack out sia. still got proj to rush by mon. in e end... i fell ill.

toDAe
went to c a doc. SUPER SICK. my head is like star star star. den my nose is like runnin tap. aft tt still went to K wif Gabriel. lol. K is e only way i can relief myself. aft K i was fine. come back hm, back to square 1. SICK!! gonna do my work le. i miss u peepz, my girls. oh ya.. me n Terry end of story. :) GOOD. one down.

2006-06-21T21:46:00.000-07:00

went to play bball at tamp jus now wif Jordan, Lemuel, Varian and another guy call Cheng Han i tink. damn shiok. long time since i played. todae played damn hard. 3hr+ non stop. let out n lose weight. damn power la though i get afew injuries from all 4 of them. especially Jordan!! wanna break my neck. haha.. let's have another dae like tis again soon! wEee..

went singin for e past 3 daes. a form of lettin out my saddness n my money. haha.. i'm damn broke!! but still i wanna sing. i wanna sing todae, tml, everydae! cant find ace vaccination card. i was like damn gan jiong. machiam like losin my son's birth cert. lucki it's somewhere ard. tml is my bike license. reali lookin forward to it. prayin hard i dun miss it again. todae feelin rather weird. i'm weird anyway. watever. life goes on. I MISS ACE.

2006-06-20T18:19:00.000-07:00

i tink my life's reali in a mess rite now. i'm gettin myself in more n more prob. probably i'm jus tryin to make myself numb.

i'm not goin to shop when i so feel like goin. tt's e only place on earth that i feel comfortable at. but yet.. i dun wanna bring my prob dere along wif me. not being able to perform my best n take e same pay is unfair to tony. n dere's ppl who care for me dere. i dun wan my prob to become theirs.

at home, i duno wat my mum wants. i'm tryin hard to please her le. but she's still not. she wan me to get rid of ace i did. she wan me to concentrate on my studies, i tried. she wan me to eat more, i m tryin aso. but still, e shoutin, e cryin, e hurtin goes on. i'm afraid to go home. my home n i'm draggin myself back. tt's so sad. i jus sat at e void deck sometimes. till i'm ready to face everything again. reach home, go to my room, with her scoldin goin on n on outside my door. she's my mum, i love her. i reali do. i know she loves me too.

bout bgr, wat's not my, i try not to tink bout it anymore. though e memories r still hauntin me at nite. bout all e other 4 guys tt r interested in me.. Gabriel, Varian, Terry, Chris. all r great guys. tt's when e prob come. i dun wan to hurt anyone of them. though i can b a bitch n carry on, but tis is not me. i cant do tt.

Gabriel tries very hard to b dere for me. i know he's tryin very hard. i know he reali care. but yet, we're so diff in so many ways. n i know tt he's worried bout e other guys tt r interested in me. i dun wan him to b unhappy when he's wif me. when ever i'm down, he wld pei me. reali appreciate tt. love ya for tt.

Varian is a nice chap too. fun to b wif. reali knows how to make me smile even wif jus words. though i'm quite insecure bout wat he reali wan n feel but i'm gettin a clearer pic le. thx for always listenin to my prob, chattin on e fone wif me jus to wait for me to fall asleep. thx for tt too. *hugs*

Terry is a guy who has went thru alot. a retired beng. haha.. he always tell me, happy can le. but he still loves his x, yet he duno whether to get back. contradicting himself. i noe he's not serious bout me yet. i'm least worried bout hurtin him. but still wanna thx him for sittin late at nite at coffee shop wif me to jus talk. reali nice talkin wif him.

Chris is a guy who's lookin for a long term relationship. tt's wat i wan. yet, he's owaes busy, tired, he's like not even tryin. he likes me yea, but if he cant b dere for me, wat for. still thx for sendin me to momo tt nite though i like gif u e wrong direction n we go ridin round singapore. haha..

bottomline---> i duno wat to do. i jus pray to Him. hope He'll show me a way out. if He brings me to it, He'll bring me thru it. but i duno how long more i can last. with all e sleepless nite, endless drinkin n smokin, loss of appetite. i hope my body can take it.

2006-06-18T06:53:00.000-07:00

sUn

cant wake up for work. was expected. so went to do facial den Anna was like askin me to tutor her son cos he's as rebellious as me. so mayb i can guide him in a diff way. actuali tink it's not a bad idea cos i can help someone tt's walkin e same path as i did b4. furthermore, she's offerin to do facial for me free in return. :)

sAt

went to work. was damn tire from e nite b4. but on e way to work, i was havin a serious tot bout my life. how was i goin to live it. i jus wanna treat yesterdae like a dream, 1 tt i longed for. i was like cinderalla. at least i was. at least i had him for a moment. wasnt too much to ask for rite? was tinkin too much. was keepin myself busy to not tink. was tryin to focus on my work. non stop i tried to groom e dogs. n i had a bad stomach for e whole dae. my body's crap now. cant sleep, cant eat, drink n smoke. i need a doc! den he came. atmosphere was weird. i duno how to face him. duno wat to sae. sld i ignore or sld i act normal. i chose e 2nd 1 cos i dun wan to ruin some things. each time we cross eyes, i cant reali describe e feelin. somehow, things werent e same. i was afraid, i was keepin my distance. i was prayin we cld knock off asap. we went to tony roma's to haf dinner. cant eat again. I JUS CANT. i m hungry but i got full jus by abit of food. i wanna leave badly. dun wanna suffer in a way, Fen cld feel my pain. i love her. she knows me so well. went to DXO to meet Varian, Jordan and Kelvin. it was a total disappointment. but i met Jeremy dere. was great catchin up wif him. nothing more, though i tot i might. had a great time updatin each other n playin 5 10. saw Audrey n knew Vanessa dere. aft tt still went to elias for cup noodle n i cant finish it again. -.-!! went home bout 7am.
thx for being here when i needed u. u took away some of my pain. i'm sry for bein selfish n honest here. But I am only human. forgive me.

fRi

fucked up mornin. overslept for my first lesson cos i took sleepin pills wif flu medicine last nite. i cldn wake up aft 16 missed calls. OMG!! but fuck care la. got alot of things to do later. went for french manicure at 2pm, make up at 3pm, den hair stylin at 4pm. e hair stylin n manicure were worth it. especially e hair. i feel like a princess. e make up sux at first. she use blue eye shadow can. got her to change it to earth tone. den e eyebrow she draw too long le. so fake. so i went to e ladies to touch up abit. tink i can do even better lo. everyone was like lookin at me lo. in dress and make over. they muz b tinkin wat i doin dere sia. went to take neoprint b4 meetin him. took a cab to hilton. in e cab, he gave me e pendant. reali appreciate n like it alot. was feelin damn cold la. den borrow his blazer den he still tell e uncle worngly to lower e temp. -.-!! was actuali tryin not to smoke when i was dere. but he was reali busy so.. i still did. i understand though. sms n called ppl to entertain me. knew tt he tried to entertain me also. aft some photo takin we went in. he was diff todae. talk more, feel as if we were back to last time. reali enjoyed. mayb it's cos he already knew wat he wanted. good for him. e best couple competition was crap though. haha.. aft tt we had a talk. a good one, i got my answers. thx for givin me such a wonderful nite.

tHUr

went to book all my appointments for tml which includes manicure, make up n hair stylin. den rush down to shop cos tony needed an urgent meetin. in e end oni i turn up. i was like wtf. haha.. but good la. he help me gan e pervert shit. den we had a good talk over dinner. reach home had a reali bad flu. but tml needa wake up early for bike lesson so took sleepin pills n flu med tgh.

wEd

went to work den Chris came to meet me. had a great talk wif him at parkway mac bout my prob n us. he was gone for so so long. so updated him quite abit. den he sent me to momo. so paiseh cos i showed him e wrong directions. den we were like goin round n round. met Mabel! long time no c her sia. was eatin my first food, which was a bun, which she soiled by huggin me. IT TOUCHED HER ARMPIT!! she ruined my oni source of food. den still keep on sayin i lost so much weight. -.-!! den her fren was like such a lousy drinker lo. drunk aft 2. OMG. left bout 4. den some crappy shit happened. lucki Varian came to help. thx god. without him, i duno wat wld happen. thx alot n love ya..

tUe

went to get my heels. been searchin for it for so so long. singapore no more my size. till i went to novena sq den get a size smaller which i can still fit. but they manage to get my size at amara. so went dere to change size. but i was like lost can. in e stations while changin trains. omg.. den waited for his appearance. upon seein him, my heart beat abit faster. he din talk much, i guessed he was upset bout things tt happen btw them. got e dress den we went to makan cos he was rushin home. i finish my whole meal cos he wasnt talkin at all. felt tt he changed. kinda upset. wonder wat's botherin him but yet dun dare ask much also la. he wanna tell will tell de. he left, gabriel came, den left, tony came, den we went to haf dinner when my mum called. spoil everything.

sAt, sUn, mOn

been quarreling wif mum bout Ace. decided to gif him up. gif him a better hm. i cant b selfish. jus hope Louis can take him in n love him more den e way i cld. i'll always remember him as my son.

2006-06-09T12:42:00.000-07:00

wow.. did alot of shoppin tis few daes. i guess it's retail therapy la. haha.. went to fareast wif jj, ru, mel, julie, janet. but they all like jus pei me buy nia. haha.. big packet, small packet de. spend 200+. SHIOK!!! bought 3 shorts, 3 polo tees, 3 tops for clubbin, 3 t-shirts, 2 necklaces, 1 skirt, 1 sandals, 1 tongue stud. bout dere la. haha.. still needa buy bag & heels. did manicure & pedicure at bugis wif fen. cost 48 bucks. quite cheap & damn nice. i tink i'm feelin rich again. lolx.. met julie for k lunch at hougang. sing till damn SONG AH. aft tt play pool. as usual, she kenna trash by me again. tis few week always go clubbin, like machiam every week event. but bua pai la, can lose weight. finali enrolled for my bike. wee~ spend again!! argh.. but money can earn back de la. went to b hair model at parco bugis monsoon. colour damn nice, cut like doll doll hair. dun like, so not me. haha..

some guys jus dun understand wat is i got bf le. so tired entertaining all this ppl. den i duno & dun like to reject ppl. but i damn zai la todae, make me dulan den gan le la.

wahaha.. so happy so happy. thx for everything. MuAcKz...

2006-06-06T10:30:00.000-07:00

it's great getting into another relationship. i feel so loved. :)

2006-06-01T07:45:00.000-07:00

Wed
a total disaster. i got so much work to do. haven do mosaic, haven research, haven write e reflection. wth wth.. den when i need help, both Chris n Varian offered to help. but Chris on e way le, so ask Varian no need come. god knows Varian was walkin round Pasir Ris, tryin to find me. haha.. aft Chris left, Varian came. din manage to finish it den he like offer to help me complete it tml lo. wa...

Thur
i cant squeeze up 3 bus 15. can u imagine my pain n agony? !!! i almost killed myself. took cab to pass Varian e stuff den piah to sch. he din manage to finish it either. but very grateful le. so i went to take mc. aft tt we went to town. walk ard, play pool den went to pet safari to check out e dogs. din do maosaic at all n i'm so dead...

Fri
aft sch, met idil go town buy his shoe frm beach rd. den met his fren Bryan, den Gabriel, den Varian. i'm like damn busy la. suppose to meet Chris de, in end nvr den went to MU n Momo wif JJ n gang. dance till my legs almost gave way. haha.. aft tt JJ's frn send us home. i swear i wun go clubbin for some time le. abit sian liao lo.
i tink i'll gif ace up lo. best for him. whether to gif who i duno!

2006-05-31T02:26:00.000-07:00

wow.. time flies lo.. y i sae so??

1. i 19 le. so sad.. last teenage le. yr 3 le. graduating soon. lao za bo liao~
2. next week is term test week le lo.. so fast haf a term gone. lucki i only got 1 paper.
3. all e proj deadlines are chasin after me. i need a break!!
4. so fast, it's been 27 daes since it all happened.
5. so fast, that dae's comin le. duno wat sld i do. hai.........................................................
6. so fast, alot of new ppl in my life. i guess i've miss out all e fun for so long. went riding, meet new ppl, clubbing. all these tt i din do cos i know he dun like. haha.. but he dun understand de la. still got cheek to complain to ppl sae is i control him. i tink he's worse off cos he visit bapok n treat them like his gf. omg, they r not even girls in e first place. sld i use bf?? wa.. how cum i become so sarcastic. i shall pray for forgiveness later.
7. i miss alot of ppl. my netball girls, xx, ml, julie, mark, lanny, yun si, william, ricky. super long nvr c them.

some stuff tt happen todae..
went to sch for like half an hour for stupid e-bus online test. but not bad leh. i anyhow study also can get 37. lol.. later ppl goin to sae i hao lian again. haha.. went to makan wif mel den saw louis. den he pei me go reservoir. den catch up abit lo. den was talkin to varian on e fone den louis so smart can guess is a guy. haha.. den he sae wat i like gettin better le. hmmm.. i guess, probably ba. though it still hurts inside, on e outside at least i try to b ok. yea.. duno wat to sae la. but it's gonna take time for some stuff to go away. but not bout xav la. i'm disgusted by him lo.

tryin to live life to e fullest
tryin to b strong
tryin to b me
tryin not to hurt anyone
tryin not to use anyone
tryin not to jus find anyone

2006-05-28T11:39:00.000-07:00

omg.. i jus reach home n it's like 2:37am on my com. lolx.. update abit den go do some work.

yesterdae went to catch Da Vinci Code wif tony & fen. e show was ok oni leh. tot it wld b nicer though. was sittin beside tis guy. den we 2 gotta share e handle la. den keep knockin into each others' elbows. i was like so disturbed den cant enjoy e show. lolx. but i quite like e way they decode e riddles. interestin.

todae went to makan at cheesecake cafe wif tony & weijian. main course still sux like last time. but e cakes r great la. but e price ah.. also VERY NICE la. haha. aft tt played pool den went to 742 la kopi. finali got e determination to delete everything from my fone. frm pic to video to even his voice. ALL OUT!! tony still burn his photo. OMG OMG.. e night was great though, wif great ppl wif me. YEAH~ life's great liddat. no worries, no pain, no control, no evil thoughts, no trouble, no fantasies. jus fun & laughters, tireness, jus so PEARL.

Bugis wif Idil

2006-05-26T04:53:00.000-07:00

2006-05-26T04:31:00.000-07:00

WOW.. tis week is so hectic for me. went thru 3 presentations, 1 test and whole bunch of unfortunate events.

1. 2 presentations tt haf q&a i was kenna shoot.
2. studied till 4.30am for ob test, woke up at 7.30am n i was still late!!!
3. on my test tt dae, me n Janice cant squeeze up 2 bus 15. late for like 25 min, lucki i finish e test in 5 min.
4. when i was wif Idil shoppin at Bugis, my atm card got retained by e damn, bloody machine. OMG.. super pissed la. cos actuali wanted to get something de.
5. when i went to remake my card, gotta pay 5 bucks, den e guy still ask me make debit card & mini card. in e end i end up wif 3 cards. den need my signature, but damn.. forgot my old signature, keep signin & signin. haha..
6. x men 3 wasnt as nice as wat i've expected. sad~
7. hang out till 1+. i wanted to pee badly, but he was talkin to me ma. haha.. den bear wif it for 30 min.
8. continued wif my proj till 4am, when MY COM CRASHED!!! WTH.. den i went to use my bro's com, do till goin to finish, my com resurrect. i was like: thx lo............................
9. din sleep e whole nite, to b exact, i only slept 3 hr for 2 days!!! was like a walkin zombie, still gotta go for presentation, CMM dae is damn noisy, kept bumpin into his friends.
10. i cant believe it!!! I'M STILL GOIN TO MOMO LATER. TML STILL GOT WORK! I'M SO DEAD!!!

2006-05-22T03:25:00.000-07:00

gonna blog den go start study le, got so so so mani work to do. i'm dyin!!!

yesterdae went to orchard wif fen again. went to look for dress n heels for e ball. shortlisted some first if not i scare tt dae will beri funni cos i scare later cant decide den die. lolx. we like choose from bugis to orchard. got afew not bad de la. haha.. but i realise i lose weight till i become flat screen tv like aili. i needa eat more!! my skirt is like droppin off my ass, so went to topshop to get a belt. den cant help but get a leather sandals dere too. spend like 70 bucks for 2 items. i tink i feelin rich la. haha.. tried some dress den went to orchard to try more. lolx.. got a Mlphosis bag. damn girl la. smth new. again. got tony a pair of slippers at Herren. met tony, toopid man, T & A for dinner at HV crystal jade. A was like sayin i used to b so cheerful, so bubbly, but now, he sae i so quiet, dun eat much, duno tinkin bout wat owaes. i began to tink ya hor. but.. things change. yea.. feel rather.. y i become liddat?

if god bring me to tis, he'll bring me thru tis. i owaes believe.

2006-05-20T22:31:00.000-07:00

Time passes.
Life happens.
Distance separates.
Children grow up.
Love waxes and wanes.
Hearts break.
Careers end.
Jobs come and go.
Colleagues forget favors.
Men don't call when they say they will.
BUT girlfriends are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you.

When you have to walk that lonesome valley, and you have to walk it for yourself, your girlfriends will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley's end. Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk beside you. Or come in and carry you out.

2006-05-20T13:40:00.000-07:00

i'm still awake!!! jus finish clearing some old clothes, some rubbish in my wardrobe. felt so so good, throw tis throw tt. but i usually do tis after i shop. lolx.. had a great dae.

afternoon met jj in school do research den we went to makan at techno. den walk to mac to continue do some work. bid my jj n phi phi goodbye den went to meet fen at orchrad. she was late AGAIN. haha.. bought some materials for my proj den we went to walk walk shop shop. went to taka, bought a top from mango. quite like it. green, mature, spag, something new, something i wun wear in e past cos of some reasons. aft tt we went ard lookin for shoes for some special reasons too. went to fox got 1 spag, 1 skirt n 1 bottom. spent ard $150. not too bad la.

aft tt we went to take neoprint at cine before we head to coffee club for dinner. (by den it was 11pm le). tony called.. actuali he lookin for me bery long le, but drag till damn late den talk to him. talk abit bout work thingy den he updated something bout xavier callin n sms-in e bapoks very often, complainin he no gf, treatin them almost like his GFsssssss. felt so so so so ....... mix feelings. haiz. wat happen to him man?

i'm losin weight. damn. not on purpose de. lost 2 kg. tt makes me 40kg now.

2006-05-18T11:14:00.000-07:00

pills aint workin again. so i tried pills wif alcohol. seems to haf a better effect. my friends cant help me. I'm sorry, not tryin to destroy my life or body, but i'm reali helpess now. at least maby i can haf a beta night for tonight. dun worry i'm fine. even if i'm not, i will handle it. tony called to sae some stuff which i dun reali wanna hear rite now, not at this moment when my life's bad enuff. but he did la. SHIT... another thing to worry. guess i wun b goin shop often frm now. god bless u guys. gonna clear up e mess le. take care for ppl i care!!!!

2006-05-17T10:48:00.000-07:00

I cant sleep again. It's been duno how many nights le. Can joke ard in front of ppl, smile & laugh. In front of ppl who care I have to pretend i'm happy. I dun wan them to worry. Tony, Fen, Tracy, Louis, Jayce, Ru, Dy have been by my side all tis while. I dun wanna let them down. Only at night like now, when I'm so bothered bout so many stuff, I'm true to myself. I cant lie to myself. Alot of things that I sae I dun care, that I can let go, that I've sorted my thinkin, that I know it's wrong, right now, I feel like takin back my words. Can I, will I, should I, would I even do it? Talk to Louis bout alot of things lately, owaes felt better, but.. I cant help but let my mind wander. Y cant things in life b perfect? Y cant I have things e way I wan it to b? Y do I have to meet ppl that I shouldnt? Y must God let me go through all tis? Have been prayin to Him lately, hopin He'll gif me e strength to understand His plans for me. But I cant hear Him. I have so much to worry about. School, petshop, him, they, us. Yet I'm afraid if I dun do tis, things will change, if I continue to like this, I'll get hurt, I wonder how he's doin, even though he hurt me. Y I so stupid. I wonder if things will change? If I can make a difference? If I try.. Mayb?? I'm afraid to tink that way. I'm reali scare. I'm all alone. There's so much I feel but I dun dare to sae. Not even here. Y I so failure? I cant even keep my love ones. Mum keep askin me to get rid of Ace. I feel so useless. I cant even fend for my son. Felt like dying. I cant breath. There's nothing much I look forward to anymore. Even my fantasies have been destroyed. I'm left wif nothing but myself. OMG!!! Can someone show me e light??

2006-05-16T12:27:00.000-07:00

CANT SLEEP!! Pills aint workin!! Too much things happening at the same time la. It's overwhelming. I cant take it. Though sorted out, but den will tink n tink n tink. I know cant b selfish. It's good to c ppl u care about happy, been telling myself that. But... jus... hai... But dun wanna interfer btw anyone cos I dun wanna b 3rd party. So long u happy, I'm happy n i'll give you all, all of you my blessings. Jiayou!

Been goin to shop almost everydae, dun wanna b left alone cos my mind will wander. But tis means I got no time for my school work. haha.. Lucki thing I got in for my interview le. E interviewer dot kong la. Can c i'm a good intern. WAHAHA.. At least finally something for me to rejoice about.

So fast me n him broke up for 12 daes le.. Still will tink bout it sometime la. But it's over!! I had already walk half out of e circle. Duno he still got tink bout it anot. Guess not~ :)

2006-05-15T09:57:00.000-07:00

I will not make the same mistakes that you did.

I will not let myself.

Cause my heart so much misery.

I will not break the way you did,

You fell so hard.

I've learned the hard way.

To never let it get that far.

Because of you.

I never stray too far from the sidewalk.

Because of you.

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt.

Because of you.

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me.

Because of you.

I am afraid.

I lose my way.

And it's not too long before you point it out.

I cannot cry.

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes.

I'm forced to fake.

A smile, a laugh everyday of my life.

My heart can't possibly break.

When it wasn't even whole to start with.

Because of you.

I never stray too far from the sidewalk.

Because of you.

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt.

Because of you.

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me.

Because of you.

I am afraid.

I watched you die.

I heard you cry every night in your sleep.

I was so young.

You should have known better than to lean on me.

You never thought of anyone else.

You just saw your pain.

And now I cry in the middle of the night.

For the same damn thing.

Because of you.

I never stray too far from the sidewalk.

Because of you.

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt.

Because of you.

I try my hardest just to forget everything.

Because of you.

I don't know how to let anyone else in.

Because of you.

I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty.

Because of you.

I am afraid.

Because of you.

Because of you

2006-05-14T07:29:00.000-07:00

Tracy todae told me he went to Changi to look for bapok. I reali dun understand sia.. Y he got gf le still wanna flirt ard. Haiz.. M i reali that lousy till e extend he has to look for them?? Though he's not my bf anymore, but cant help but tink y la.

I feel that he's avoiding me after i know bout it. i feel kinda sad. I dun reali mind actuali. So long as both of u 2 r happy. U 2 will owaes b someone very close to me. No matter wat happen la, I treasure you guys lots!

2006-05-13T21:06:00.000-07:00

Yesterdae after work went Zouk wif Louis to meet JJ, Mel, Kai, Phi, De Long, Candy, Ai Long, Pei Ru & Terence. Actuali Fen got join us de, but in e end din. It was their first time seeing Louis though they heard bout him long ago. Has been a long time since i had so, so much fun. Everyone was like saying Louis not bad la, say he was so much better den Xavier, jus keep bombarding us la. He was jus my bf for e night cos he wanted to look after me. Lolx.. My friends left first, leaving Louis & me talking our hearts out. We were both very honest yesterdae & i'm very grateful for that. We were talking & walking, all e way from ZOUK to PS. OMG!! Shared mac den went home. Reach home already 8+ le. Now that I woke up, i began tinking if yesterdae was even real. Haha.. It was such a naked conversion till i cant believe it. It's a very complicated relationship. VERY indeed. But i know it doesnt mean anything also. I did not expect anything to change, i'm jus glad to know.

2006-05-09T19:51:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. goin thru some hard time now. broke up wif him after a series of problems. gotta admit i was pretty upset. cant sae who's rite, who's wrong. cos u jus cant draw lines clearly in these type of matters ba. but 1 thing is true, he has totally gave up on our relationship. i have happily accepted that. no point crying over spilled milk i tell myself. but reali din expect them to be tgh so quickly too. is he that heartless? i guess so ba.. been wondering if he even feel sad. but i remembered he said he'll. haha.. m i jus consoling myself? dun wanna tink bout happy past. kept remindin myself all e ugly stuff that happened. i should b happy someone else took over me. hopin to move out of e circle asap. was deletin e photos jus now, oh my tt sux man. but i guess it's e right thing to do now la. thx to alot of support n care from other ppl. i will do u guys proud. lastly to you if u even come to read my blog, all e best. i'm sorry and thx for everything.

2006-03-29T08:02:00.000-08:00

todae finally got off from work. phew~ so me n dar sleep till full full already den we went to TM fix my hp accessory cos dar's name de I & R spoil le. at first we wanted to go to town de, in e end we tu till too late so stayed at tampines. we bought cookie mix so we can make at nite. haha.. den went to watch Ultraviolet. not bad not bad.. e girl's quite cool. when we reached my house we made cookies!!! he still made a HEART shape one for me. so sweet!!!

rating for Ultraviolet: ****

2006-03-25T09:22:00.000-08:00

Closer to our dreamland

Merang Jetty Me with Nemo

Underwater kiss kiss

Mo Mo Tea Inn

Cheers~

Jiao bei jiu

Me & my Princess Pei Pei

Beautiful Redand sea~

BBQ buffet dinner. That was what's left. Haha.
Waiting for sun to rise.
Sunrise in Redang

Goodbye Redang~ We'll be back!!!

2006-03-25T08:07:00.000-08:00

rU's BdAe & OuR 9tH MoNtH AnNiVeRsArY

my dearest ru is finally 19. muhaha.. join me liao. we went to my dad's kelong to celebrate. but damn lo.. all of us were like darn late den began to gan chiong. faster buy e bbq stuff den piah cab go beach. phi & jj saw my 3 kelong dogs so scare. haha.. den we faster wash e stuff den set up e fire n cook le. after dinner, we played majong. till me n dar cant tong den went to sleep. wake up they still playin. power sia~ haha.. after tt din go work cos it's our 9th MoNtH AnNiVeRsArY!! haha.. we kept our promise n went back to Coconut Groove to haf dinner. YuMmI~

Phi's BdAe

e crazy girl held her party in a chalet. but my god lo, she go everywhere machiam all her fren de. so many TP ppl dere lo. at least got 4 rooms all TP de. haha.. we had fun smashin cake onto her face, gettin chase by her, n smashin cake on her face in e toilet again. lolx.. den Ayumi came into e pic n spoil my majong games, leavin me wif dar watchin tv but listenin to Ayumi's n JJ's concert. so me n dar turn to playin tai di, but dar fell asleep. poor me woke dar up in e mornin den we went home. haha.. but i reali reali enjoyed myself. thx everyone who makes my dae!!

2006-03-20T19:19:00.000-08:00

Love is a temporary madness. Love erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when love subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, love is not excitement, love is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. LOVE IS BLIND, you risked it all just to be with him & LOVE IS GIVING, you not necessary reap what you sowed & Because LOVE IS SACRIFICING, i'm now sacrificing for what i think is right.

2006-03-20T18:13:00.000-08:00

ReDaNg TRiP

I'm just so excited about the trip, before or after. haha.. cos it's like honeymoon for me n dar. but everything was in such a rush lo. we book e tickets todae, confirm on e date of departure den go le. almost got no tic to go. haha.. made ru n ter gan chiong aso. it was a damn long trip to Merang Jetty. we took like 10 hours by bus, den we hafta take a ferry to Redang. but suay suay e boat faulty den we were stuck on e boat for an hr den change to another one. me n dar jus slept throughout e trip but ter was pukin like mad. haha.. so funny.

it was such a lovely island jus like how it was in e movie, xia re mo mo cha. we were all so grateful to finally reach our destination. our room also not too bad. got 3 beds so funni de. haha.. we went for our snorkeling trip. e water was so so clear n cold of course, omg it's heaven man.. e fishes, corals, it was jus so beautiful. reali felt so much in love again on e boat, me in his arms, enjoyin e breeze n captivating view n definitely, wif ru n ter's company. we even took underwater pic wif 'NEMO'. haha.. dar look so funni but entertainin underwater. haha..

the food there got nothing to complain about. i can haf such a verdict as dar n ter also go for at least 2nd round for every meal. haha.. every meal was buffet n e food reali not bad la. haha.. dar especially like e bbq dinner buffet which was our last dinner dere. after dinner we usually will slack ard, stroll ard e whole island, drink milo n teh, n lookin for blue sand. haha..

we also play beach volleyball, which never maintain for e most 3 passes. haha.. den we also swam in e sea. e sea in singapore reali cant compare to there de loh. e wave also so big lo. not like sentosa de. den i accidentially scratch dar cos i saw this super big wave comin den was tryin to grab dar when he jumped up n got hurt. haha.. den e crew dere still help dar apply medicine, thinkin that he was scratched by the rocks. opps..

so fast 3 days goin to pass le. all of us cant bear to leave lo.. so we took alot alot of pics. we even saw fireworks dere. aww.. so romantic man~ last night we went to find dar's honey dere. lolx.. oni e 4 of us will know who's tt though. keke.. we also manage to catch e sunrise!! i tink even e sunrise dere was prettier. haha..

we took another 10hr bus back to singapore. suay suay dar was check at e custom. lucky lucky din manage to find anything. haha.. WE PROMISE TO GO BACK AGAIN!!

2006-02-28T07:33:00.000-08:00

My BiRtHdAe!!!

so happy~ darling gave me a birthdae card that is so damn cute & sweet!!! before lunch we had my birthdae cake den er jie bring us to eat at a bakery restaurant featured on tv at Frankel Ave. e food not bad but x & dere quite hot. den for dinner, met daddy den he gif me money. wahaha.. mummy also give me money. lolx.... den met jj, phi phi, ruru & ter at fishermen. we drank at the blue hut. when playin blackjack i was e banker den kenna sabo. so sad.. all bully me.. even dar. haha.. had a great nite wif great frenz & great dar. enjoyed myself to e core man.. thx gurlz & dar. love u all to e every bits. thx for takin care of me too dar!! i love u. happy 19th birthdae to myself~

~My BiRtHdAy EvE~

dar pei me go play pool den we went to walk walk. aft tt er jie bring me & dar & mummy go makan at Coconut Groove at Hougang. e environment dere not bad. food also not bad den also quite cheap. quite like e atmosphere dere. dar very power.. help us eat all e food that we cant finish. lolx... dar & me sae we 9th month wanna go dere eat again. wahaha..

2006-02-23T22:45:00.000-08:00

finally finished all my papers yesterday & dar's gonna finish his todae. haha.. so happy.. jus in time to celebrate my BIRTHDAY tml~ haha.. now waiting for him to finish his paper nothing to do so blog.. haha.. my papers abit sux loh.. all so hard.. oni accounting & lodgin still ok. fb ops was like 52% not from notes.. my MICE abit gone case.. wat i studied mostly never come out. FM damn damn hard also.. OMG OMG.. but i guess i wun haf to take supp la. muz haf confidence. haha.. yesterday me, ah boi & dar went to cut & dye hair together. den ah boi was like complainin that his hair colour very obvious. so funni loh. den both of them highlight the same colour. i oni dye my hair ash colour den cut my hair one side shorter den e other. find it not too bad. hehe.. now got 2 months break. but gonna work lo. dar also hafta lo. abit she bu de sia.. but nvm la.. jus hope everything will be fine for us. ^^

2006-02-21T06:42:00.000-08:00

8 Months Anniversary

got dar a new pair of slippers~ Billabong de cos he last month bought a black one for me so buy him back a black pair so we can same colour. ^^ den dar eat alot of tea leaf egg sia. so scary.. lolx

Valentine's Day

so sad still gotta go school take my culinary test. but abit noob loh. they ask us to pan fry e fish, fried one egg n make mayo. was quite alrite la. den met dar at Seah Im dere den bought my fav for me again. haha.. after tt went to harbourfront centre cos dar wanna eat Han's. but Han's haven open. haha.. so we went to walk ard. we bought a couple cup n dar bought rose for me. haha.. after tt went to makan but e food not very nice leh. tamp de nicer.

Study Week

study study study... dun wanna fail!! fail le mux go back sentosa retake e subj. NO!!! den dar no study den i angry den i scold him den he angry. haiz.. den duno where he go. lucki now ok le.

sometimes i feel he's like a timebomb. dun reali noe how to care bout him le. mayb jus let him haf his way loh. tt's e only way out. also dun say too much le. sae too much he dun like also. haiz.. n hope someone dun come sms him again. will reali appreciate it. he's jus tryin to piss me off. thx. but quite happy also cos cleared things out between his mum. haha.. she still ask me go back wif him to stay. lolx.

2006-02-04T10:01:00.000-08:00

afew daes ago.. i almost lost something very very special & important. almost lost him. in e past, i used to tink he wun ever leave me but till tt moment i was still in shock. it jus came too suddenly. mayb reali is when u lost something den u will treasure ba. but now we ok le lah. he also said tt he regretted separating from me for 20 hours. haha.. he took a cab to my house at 6am in e morning loh. love him to bits..

through this incident, i also came to realise tt his mum n family din reali like me. i cant believe it man. felt being backstab. i tink she's trying to sow discord. wat ever she do n said is bullshit. i wun believe her again. dun wanna c her again too. to tink she still call my dad. i hate people who disturb my family. jus bug off.

as for todae~ in e morning, i accompanied dar to school cos he got test den we went to the cafe to eat. it's his first time there. haha.. honour to have his first meal together wif me. lolx.. den afternoon we got captain's ball match. my group got: Phi Phi, JJ, RuRu, Da Tou, Rozi & me!! we somehow won e champs but it was a tough way there. we almost started a fight wif one of e gua lan yr 1. dar still help me scold her sia. haha.. keep on diao us loh. wtf. she let me c her in school she sure die de. next week still gotta play wif e lecturers. :P

2006-01-31T05:59:00.000-08:00

GoNg Xi Fa cAi EVERYONE!!!

27th JaN

petshop was open 24hr todae.. but too bad cant stay for 24hr cos i got a bbq dinner wif my relatives. dar & me chiong home den aft tt chiong to Woodlands. but tink shop too busy le.. so we went back to work wif like 5 dogs & 1 cat to go. SHAG MAN!!!

28th JaN

shop was busy busy, me & dar were shag shag.. but still went down to collect our big big hong baos.. haha.. aft tt went to dar's granny place to haf reunion dinner wif his family den went to my sis's place to haf dinner wif my family. at first dar still scare tt we'll finally b separated but we din. haha.. haf been together since his bdae. :)

29th JaN

OMG OMG.. i went house visitin till i so so SHAG!! & i miss dar so much. luckily he came to find me durin my last stop. haha.. aft tt we still went to watch Memoirs of a Geisha AGAIN. haha.. we watch twice le. XP

30th JaN

went to my sis's place to c lion dance den we chiong go Bedok to haf dinner wif his family again. haha.. dar was so excited bout the new puppy. duno wanna call him ACE or BLACKJACK.

31st JaN

our new member is home. his name is ACE. he's so adorable & cute. haha.. we love him, but we love YOYO more!!

2006-01-21T08:55:00.000-08:00

wED

did grooming for a german shephard & a saint's bernard.. both BIG dogs. bathin for them was horrible. it was more like a swim for me. haha.. but was great cos dar was there wif me. he was there whenever i was there actuali. lolx..

tHUR

TP Open House!! had to wear formal wear den gotta stand & stand & stand & stand. MY GOD.. my legs almost gave way. haha.. got lotsa ppl came. saw all these sec school kids made me feel old.. but lucki i dun look old. they sae i look like same age as them. HAHA!!! aft tt actuali wanted to go watch memoirs of a geisha wif ruru, jj & dy de.. in e end, we went to Chinatown wif Tony, Fen & Wei Sheng. it was darn crowded & hot loh. even weekdaes are like tt i cant imagine weekends. bought some mua ji & gong teng.

fRI

went to work den had dinner at East Coast wif e pet line ppl. was cool loh. alot of breeders went. keke.. actuali no place for dar de.. but in e end settled le. was a great meal.. everyone was havin fun, chit chat & share knowledge. was a total experience. :D

sAT

i hope my boss wun tok bout installin a punch card machine anymore..
i hope my boss wun sae he wun send us all home anymore..
i hope my boss wun stress us anymore..

it's all freakin me out. i got lotsa work to do. my exams are coming. my tests & presentation are next week. i'm saving like mad for my license. my mum sae petshop = no future. dar sae he's sick of petshop. wtf.. dun tell me all these shit. i'm stress enuff le.

2005-12-13T01:51:00.000-08:00

haha.. so long nvr update my blog le.. so now let me jus tok tok bout wat happened so far..

Mummy's bdae celebration

we bought mummy to makan at sewbawang e hong kong restaurant. as usual e beijing duck beri fast finish. luckily we got reserve half. haha.. den we order all their special dishes.. all eat till like wanna die liao.. den dar so ke lian.. my daddy ask him to eat the fats of the fish. tis fats oni tis type of fish den haf de. but dar eat le wanna vomit. wahaha.. after eatin we drank e port wine tt we bought for daddy. dar as usual.. became darn red. lolx.. aft tt we still went to a cafe at thomson to eat some cakes & drink some stuff.

Mummy's bdae
For mummy's bdae.. me & dar bought her the cartoon, Spirit, which she saw on channel 5. she loves it alot so went to get her e dvd. we went to alot of place to find sia.. runnin ard all e video shops in TM & CS. finally manage to get it at music junction. haha.. we den went to TM crystal jade to meet mummy & e rest. e food was not bad lah.. unique i would sae.. but kinda x lah.. whole meal cost 400+. wth loh..

Zouk Out

It was a great nite!! Had fun wif my poly gurlz & my dar dar.. dar borrowed ez link from Arthur cos he underage!! LOLX.. dar & me together for half a year loh.. so fast loh.. we bought a new carbon fibre couple ring. cos 90+ loh. but darn classy & cool. we still engrave each other's names onto the ring. I LOVE YA DARLING!! we drank at TAS first den e security still chit chat wif me & dar. we dance till like 4+ NON-STOP. me & dar wanna die le so we went back to TAS to bathe first. god knows we went e wrong way & it started pourin. we ran in e rain sia.. up e slope somemore. cold but so romantic. wahaha.. we waited for everyone to come back den me, dar, ruru & ter share cab. but NO CAB. omg omg.. we are like cold, tire & hungry. haha..

JJ's bdae

We gurlz went to MoMo to haf fun. so sad dar & ter cant join us cos they under 21. LOLX.. JJ's pri school teacher aso went sia.. so havoc sia she.. we had fun den me & Mel went home first. dar was not happi!! blehh...

Christmas Party @ Petshop

WOW!! i miss those dogs sia.. c dar work at petshop so cute.. he's like so amazed & so noob.. wahaha.. he change alot sia since last time.. last time he dun like & scare of dogs loh. he still tell me sae he find ppl who talk to dogs are siao.. but now.. he ah.. "YoYo.. I LOVE YOU". LOLX... alot of ppl & food & alcohol loh.. tony cook alot of yummi food~ wif Alvan ard.. of course we had cake smashin session. i like kenna e most loh. piang eh..

Chirstmas Presentz:

Suan Cher Ai Ai -> candy & key chain

Crystal -> 2 SEXY tops

Tony my boss, friend & dad -> Nike cap & Adidas cap for my dar

Estella er jie -> couple handphone accessory for me & dar

Dar's aunt -> pillow

Dar -> my dream Levi's belt, beri KAWAII Winnie e Pooh & a card

Malaysia Trip

dar & me waited so long for tis dae loh.. half a year ago we wait liao. lolx.. we took e coach dere & by e time we reach Gentin 4+ liao. darn cold loh. so we went to sleep first.

DAE ONE -> morning wake up, we chiong go shopping. we bought 4 nike t-shirts & 2 brown tops, all couple de. dar still bought 1 bag & 1 converse shoes cos they dun haf my size. we goin to KL to find. keke..

DAE TWO -> we had buffet breakfast den chiong to KL shop again!! dar's mummy went wif us. we took & transfer bus & train till we seh sia.. lolx.. finish reach KLCC. found my size for e converse shoe so can couple wif dar again. we still bought 2 levi's jeans, 2 nike bags all couple again, I still bought another levi's top. we buy till hungry so makan tis super duper big prawn which cost 15rm sia.. x but nice & shiok!! aft replenishin our energy, we still go to Petaling Street to shop. bought another 2 nike jackets & 2 adidas jackets. all couple de. keke.. e ppl dere all like pia kia sia.. bth ah.. we took cable car back. remind me of e last time we took cable car. haha.. den we met my mummy sia. so coincedence.. den still went to makan dinner wif my parents & their friends downhill. after tt my daddy wanna orh orh. den mummy came out to slack ard wif me, dar, crystal & dar's mummy at Starbucks. the AUNTIES meet again. MUHAHA~

DAE THREE -> dar & me went to play e outdoor theme park. dar first ride wanna chiong e Space Shot. BUT... some accidents happen.. i jus heard screamin, saw his face turn red & duno isit tears in his eyes.. e he is who.. i duno. keke.. we like e spider man ride e most. still took pics on it. den started rainin so we play e indoor theme park. we went shoppin again!! we bought nike socks, clocks, body shop stuff, another 2 pairs of converse shoes.. all couple!! i cant stand us sia. lolx..

DAE FOUR -> goin back home le. so sad. haha.. but we like came wif 1 bag go back like alot of bags sia.. lolx.. so happi cos so many couple things wif dar dar..

we goin HONG KONG e next time!!!

New Year Eve

We countdown at home cos got party!! i still become barmaid for dar & ah boy loh. lolx. made some funni drinks like sperm bank, blow job, test tube baby & black russian de.

7 Months Anniversary..

so fast we 7 mths loh.. he bought me a new pair of Billabong slippers cos i sae i wan a black-coloured one & he got it for me. so sweet~ tis 7 mths not easy.. but we still holding on strong. ppl can call u jerk, bastard or wateva.. but in my hart you are prefect.

Finally todae.. I saved a dog's life & I'm glad i did. tis shih tzu call Muddy ran out of my shop when tis fat gurl open e door. he ran across e road, e junction & me n his owners were catchin like mad. lucki i got train cross country b4 ah.. managed to cornered him at e petrol kiosk. he still bit me loh. but seriously darn happi cos i dun wanna c history repeat itself. thank god.

2005-11-20T03:19:00.000-08:00

mON
went for my 2nd Culi lesson. learnt the different cuts of vegetables. also learnt how to make dressings like mayon & salad dressing. so excited cos my dar like mayon den i can make for him. :) so nice of dar to come to fetch me, den still buy my fav apple juice for me. we reach kovan damn hungry den we bought alot of food sia. bought otah, dou hua & glass jelly.

tUE
dar came to fetch me again cos i finish class later den him. den he bought my fav appl e juice again. dar sae e uncle sellin fruit juice tot he studyin dere sia cos he come everydae. haha.. aft tt we went to makan at chinatown. we wanna eat e bbq stingray cos last time i eat wif tony very nice but we went dere den cant find cos they rest on tue so in e end we had claypot chicken rice. e rice also very popular de, waited for 30min for it. yummy yummy.. den still dapao yam cake for my mummy. e yam cake aso very nice, alot of ppl queue de.

wED
durin luch break makan pizza wif my peeps den dar called cos he buyin spaghetti stripes for me den he ask what colour i wan. lolx.. so sweet of him.. cos i sae i wan den he buy 3 sia.. haha.. buy le he no money to eat den when i met him, we went to play billard den i bought alot of food for him. wahaha.. eat till he damn full. :P

tHUR
i got 3 tut so i damn tire. at first wanna go buy some stuff at marina de. but in e end we met at eunos den went to whitesand to walk walk nia.

fRI
aft my jap lesson, we met den we go makan at bedok. had long john's cos very long nvr eat le. den saw julie. den we went to walk walk at my fav place: supermarket. haha.. we still roleplay next time we marry will like how. haha.. at nite went to makan at changi.

sAT
we went sun tannin again. haha.. we will go every fortnight. went to palawan beach. tan awhile den we went to this shop to buy beer & cocktail to drink. dar was hungry so we order nuggets & fries. den play pool at e shop, we played best of 5, dar lost to me. wahaha.. aft tannin, we went to my school to bathe. we were early for my dad's bdae dinner. since dar still hungry, we went to chinatown to makan e bbq stingray & sotong. actuali we went dere den e shop haven finish gettin ready yet so we went to walk walk ard chinatown. dere got alot of street makan sia. all like very nice, but we oni bought 3 different types of hotdogs, all very ncie. aft we eat all e bbq stuff we were damn full loh den still went to city hall to meet my family. we went to sushi don den dar still eat alot sia.. wahhaa.. i tink his stomach like bottomless pit. haha.. we also drank sake den dar's face super red sia.. lolx.. den my daddy & me keep debatin ard e red wine issue, make everyone luff like mad. haha..

2005-11-12T23:45:00.000-08:00

wED

went to school den dar waited for me at my house den we both went to TP together cos he got class den i gotta print notes for myself & my peepz. aft tt we ate at Biz Park. has been a long time since i last ate dere sia.. kinda miz everything, the chicken chop, chicken cutlet rice, blah blah.. haha

tHUR

no school todae~ so met JJ for K Lunch, dy last min cant make it. we both had curry chicken rice but it kinda sux lah. aft tt, JJ left den i met dar play pool & billard. aft playin. we went to buy our 5th Month Anniversary card. so cute loh.. we both went to buy tgh.. dar bought my card at Precious Thots. but tink it's kinda x cos he bought e card at $9.10. den i bought e card at Kalm's. Ru was wif JJ & her fren den she saw dar standin outside Kalm's. so initially she tot we quarrel den she dun dare to approach dar. LOLX.. they were like luffin at us cos they sae where got ppl go buy present tgh de.. but is cos we both cant b separated mah. keke.. den dar made a mistake. Ru & JJ both noe den keep dun wanna tell me. in e end dar got tell me, is dar bought a birthday card by mistake. omg omg.. so blur loh him.. but i still like e card alot cos of e words he wrote inside.. so kawaii~

fRI

dar went to fetch me at harbourfront.. he bought my fav apple juice, a bouquet of lilies & another card. :) so sweet of him.. so i got 2 fifth month anniversary cards. LOLX.. aft tt we went to meet dar's mummy & crystal at old airport road to makan. eat liao den we went to night safari together. dar bought me Ben & Jerry's chocolate chip wif cookie dough ice cream!! YUMMY!!! we took e tram & also walked around e park, we also caught e performance by e creatures of the night. it was awesome~ dar's daddy came to fetch us to 85 to makan. i wasnt reali feelin beri well in e car, felt like vomitting but dar so nice took care of me. ^^ LOVE YA~

sAT

we watch alot of shows sia.. Bewitched, Bad Boys, Herbie Fully Loaded & Wait Till You're Older. we also went to kelong again. ^^

2005-11-08T09:15:00.000-08:00

mON

SCHOOL REOPEN le.. sian.. somemore first dae i kena culinary le.. damn sad cos hafta report at 8am. so jialat. but good thing is nvr change class.. so i still same class as my JJ & dy dy.. :) whole dae till 4 was like crap lah. e new lecturer was boring.. *yawn* kept teachin us how to wash hands. -.-!! but i love culinary except for e chefs, lecturer wilson (mr sim is cute.) haha.. den during break time i sms my dar like so funni. he also feel e same cos we haf been tgh 24/7 since his bdae, tt's more den 2 mths!! so feels kinda weird lah. n i miss him lots so after school chiong go back meet him liao. lolx..

tUE

went to watch Just Like Heaven at Marina wif dar. e show is GREAT!! funni yet romantic. but we went like super early so kept walkin ard suntec & marina. went to Carrefour & we bought something for each other as fifth month's present. so sweet~ we also tapao honey chicken to cinema to makan. kinda weird but nice lah & also cos dar like mah. haha.. aft show we still gian play billard so played 2 games b4 goin home.
Rating for Just Like Heaven: * * * * *

2005-11-06T05:05:00.000-08:00

fRI

actuali we catchin Doom wif Julie de.. in e end she cant make it. but.. me & dar still went to catch Tom Yam Goong. e show was ok lah. but i tink Ong Bak nicer.. but e baby elephants beri kawaii~ went home, whole house was in a mes.. all thx to my bro & his frenz. me & dar do house work for like bloody hell 2hr+ aft tt still cook till like 1+ before we haf our dinner.
Rating for Tom Yam Goong: * * *

sAT

went to catch Doom at Cine wif dar. yes.. our movie marathon. before tt went to play pool while we wait for our show to start. toopid dar choose e table jus next to e counter de. so mani ppl watchin loh. haiz.. den went to watch Doom liao. e show was ok lah.. not very scary or gross loh.
Rating for Doom: * * *

sUN

went to e Dog Show at Expo. there were alot alot of dogs dere.. COOL!! alot of competitions too. most amazin was e one tt e dogs could differeniate which was e towel with its owner's smell & not e judges. bought a army-coloured doggie carrier pouch for YoYo. it's supposed to haf e same function as those for babies. catchin doggies in front.

aft e show, some stuff cropped up. & i wasnt beri happi. neither was he. we kinda went our seperate ways to cool off. but he's comin now lah. i suppose we cant lose each other ba. though i might seemed to b not concern or watsoever, did u even gave me a chance to sae i'm sorry & tt i care? wat u oni did was to complain to me. & u noe i hate naggin & ppl showin me faces. i was worried. i care. i'm sorry. last but not least.. i love u. u noe wat i've wish for. so dun doubt me, or my love ok? i'm nasty at times, but deep down.. watashi wa dotemon suki des.

2005-11-03T23:50:00.000-08:00

We ToOk 138 To ZoO

LiTtLe PoNy

LiOnS

mE & DaR @ ZoO

2005-11-03T22:17:00.000-08:00

fRi

Dar mummy's bdae. We went to metro to buy her a white handbag, but halfway my shoe spoil. after buyin, we went to meet her and crystal at Bugis. we went to Bugis Street first cos i wanna trim my brows, went back to Parco & Dar bought a white with flowers, Billabong slippers for me. i like it alot. :) after that we walk to Suntec to makan Crystal Jade. YuMmY!!

sAT

woke up at 8 liddat cos we goin to Sentosa!! reach dere ard 10+ Dar made e Islander card den we went to Siloso beach to tan. e sun darn hot sia.. Dar kept complainin & complainin, but he still tahan lah. muhaha.. tan till 12 liddat we went to Underwater World. we saw these giant turtles outside the entrance. they r reali huge. there was a touch pool inside so we went to touch e starfish & stingray. went down e stairs & there were e sea dragons. reali cool~ we round the 3 times and the fishes were reali breath takin. sharks, dugong, BIG fishes, eels, all of these. but when i was goin round i was tinkin if they would taste great on e plates cos i was reali reali hungry. wahaha.. we went out to harbourfront to makan den went back to tan b4 goin to e Dolphin Lagoon. e pink dolphins were reali reali cute, i still remembered their names: Han, Yang & Splash. & guess wat, i was chosen to b e volunteer & Han actuali kiss me on e cheeks. i also manage to tickle his back & tummy. super cool!! but in exchange... i was like soakin wet throughout my whole journey home. blehh.. me & dar took pic with Jumbo.

mON

Dar went to pierce his left ear on Mon. but cos of that he kinda quarrel with his mum lah. i also quarrel with my mummy cos of some stuff. so we went to my house, i quarrel with my mum, went to dar's house, he quarrel with his mum den we went back to my house. LOLX..

tHUR

we went to ZOO!! fun sia. but cos we woke up abit late so everything was quite rush, still managed to catch all the animals lah. took alot of pic that dae. den got this wishin well so we tried lah. dar's wish was to b with me forever. my was.......... after we finish everything was like 6pm le. we walked for like 6 hours, our legs almost gave way. went to makan at KFC den tinkin whether to go to nite safari cos we already bought the tickets.in e end nvr go cos we goin on our fifth month & he's gonna treat me to dinner. hehe..

tips for readers: when encounterin crazy bitches, jus ignore them. let them bark all they want. after some time, they will know how irritatin they r & they will retreat back to their mummy. when they overstep e borders, den it's time to retaliate.

2005-10-30T23:22:00.000-08:00

FoUrTh MoNtH FLoWeR DaR BoUgHt

"WiLL U MaRRy Me?"

LoViNg CoUpLe

SeASiDe At PuLaU UBiN

SeNtOsA TriP

DaR TrYiNg To ShOw Off HiS MuScLE

Me In BiKiNi

SuN TaNniNg

JuMBo E KaWAii PiNk DoLpHiN

2005-10-27T20:55:00.000-07:00

haha... sometimes i tink i beri foolish sia.. fancy gettin upset over past events, gettin my own mood spoilt jus by readin some toopid stuff. i'm reali luffin at myself. y sld i even b bothered bout all those stuff. i sld haf confidence bout myself wat.. sld b sure of myself mah.. not sae i nobody wan.. lolx.. he sld b the one upset, not me. wahaha.. so i sld not tink so much & enjoy the times tt i'm sharin wif him. he's all my now wat.. wee~

2005-10-27T04:06:00.000-07:00

todae me & dar pei my mummy go kovan makan. reach dere den she realise she din bring wallet. -.-!! wth.. so we lent her all our money. toopid woman leh she.. aft makan we went to petshop to see see awhile before goin to SPCA. but got some small accident happen lah. hahaha.. i bring dar take the wrong bus so in the end we end up in Bishan. keke.. muz understand.. blur mummy give birth to blur me. so not my fault. we went to Junction 8 walk walk awhile c can buy wat for dar's mummy. aft tt took 53 see whether can go SPCA. er.. but i tink mummy's genes act on me again cos i brought dar walk the wrong direction again.. in the end we still got to SPCA. but... it's CLOSED ON THURSDAY!!! wth..

2005-10-26T02:02:00.000-07:00

yesterdae me & dar went to Pulau Ubin!! so fun sia.. we took 29 to Changi Village den walk to Changi Jetty. but haf to wait for 12 people den can take the boat to the island. The boat we sat was quite big and the ride was quite fast & fun. Once we reach Pulau Ubin, me & dar chiong to the seafood restaurant cos we both damn hungry sia.. the seafood there damn fresh, all is alive de, damn shiok. We ordered sambal dua tao, kai lan, fried prawn roll & seafood hor fun. eat until sibei song. actuali the price also quite cheap wor. we eat until damn full so dar think it's too sinful so we decided to go cycle. we cycle around Pulau Ubin, enjoying the scenic view and mosquito bites. haha.. we den stop by the beach to take pictures and video. the water was quite clear and we saw an ong lai in the sea. lolx.. we den went to drink extra cold coconut juice. gan sweet and shiok sia.. though we cycle for only 1hr plus, but dar tink beta den dun haf lah.. machiam like self consoling. wahaha.. we return the bikes den go home le cos scare too late dun haf boat back.

2005-10-22T21:25:00.000-07:00

wED

finally decided to change blog skin.. dar & me chose tis skin together.. not bad ah.. keke.. halfway while changing the skin, dar pei me go make specs. i first time wear sia.. so funni.. dar & me chose one brown wif orange de.. not bad not bad, cost $120. went back den i continue my blog again.. den dar not happi cos i do for around 5hr den nvr pei him.. lolx..

tHU

went to meet julie at Somerset cos she went to PS upgrade her fone, den need 4hr so we went to play pool at cine. after playin julie no time to c movie le, but in the end me & dar also nvr watch movie. haha.. we rush home to pei my er jie & mummy go 85 makan.

fRI

pei my mummy makan breakfast den went to collect my specs. i first time wear specs den my whole world like spinnin sia.. wahha.. dar's mumm & crystal sae my specs nicey.. :) dar's daddy send us to the beach, but his daddy gotta work so cant pei us go kelong. he sae nxt time go 2 daes. ^^ but suay suay low tide so we kenna alot of mosquito bites & mud b4 we got onto the boat. dar they all first time go kelong, so they all on top like very cartoon. dar saw my kelong dogs like beri scare, especially Blackie cos he veri fit & big. we cook alot of food, played mahjong the whole nite & both mummy tok alot sia, exchangin their experiences.. quoting from dar: "when 2 aunties meet..." wahaha.. we play mahjong till like 7+am liddat, all bth liao.

sAT

dar's mummy bring us go makan mac breakfast den went home to orh orh le.. dar & me sleep till 7pm den we went to makan wif my mummi. after that daddy came to fetch us to the kelong again. on the car my daddy ask what's dar's name den i told him. he sae beri hard to call so call him Xiao Lin, so cute!! cos my brother-in-law, sister boyfriend and dar's surnames all the same: Lim (chinese is Lin) so he is Xiao Lin. den the boat was stuck on the mud so dar went to push the boat.. nian qing you wei!! we pei daddy watch ong bak den we went to fish awhile, but darn cold so went to sleep.

sUN

we took Zai Zai, Blackie & YoYo into the sea. YoYo so kawaii when she swimmin, before put her into the water she already start paddling le. lolx.. daddy call dar Xiao Lin again. wahaha..

2005-10-16T00:48:00.000-07:00

OuR fOrTh MoNtH aNnIvErSaRy

we woke up late as usual. haha.. din make it for the movie. went to CS first cos dar wanna buy flowers for me. went to play billard at cine. after playin actuali wanna bring dar to one of my fav restuarant de.. but in the end we haf viet style beef noodles instead. we darn full sia.. den walk to PS. we still got time left den i keep pesterin dar to pei me go c doggies.. keke.. Pet Safari here we come~ dar like e husky alot, but she's reali quite nice lah.. structure wise; colour wise aso. dar keep takin her pic & even video her. lolx.. so cute sia.. but poor husky lao sai blood. OMG... i still love my YoYo girl!!

wED

afternoon we went to xinglong house play mahjong. i like super lucki sia. den dar jealous keep suanin me. lin wo fen nu!! at nite we cycle from dar home to my home cos i needa get some stuff. when reach my house downstairs, we saw the mongrel that we saw e other time. dar scare of him sia.. wahaha.. owaes hao lian to me sae he not scare of dogs liao.. but c e mongrel he hum ji sia.. dar went up to get food. when i open the food for him he snatch e whole packet away sia. -.-!! e mongrel like quite like dar sia.. keep wantin dar to touch him. but to me quite aggresive. i wanna touch him he wanna bite me. den dar toot toot throw him e food. perhaps he was scare but the sudden movement he growl at us den i scare he will bite dar so i use my shoe throw him. DEN... he took my shoe n ran away. make me hafta chase him. piang~ go up that time dar still in shock. WAHAHA..

fRI

got our supp results!! me & dar pass all our papers!! YEAH!!! dar's mummi brought me, crystal & dar to makan at COCA restaurant to celebrate crystal's bdae. it's a steamboat buffet restaurant. not bad lah. but still prefer seoul garden. keke.. thx auntie!! after tt we took the shutter bus to suntec to shop shop. dar saw a set of jordon jersey he like but his mummi dun wanna buy for him den he show pi qi. haiyo~ so i borrow 5 bucks from his mummi to buy oni the top. no money. sorry dar. but the jersey reali not bad. e shorts is reversible de, den still 40% discount, so quite a good buy. dar at first so angry wanna go home de but i sae CANNOT. his mummi ask me cannot so pamper him but he's my dar mah.. like baby liddat. lolx.. so we went to carrefour. dar like siao sia.. wanna buy food till his mummi bankrupt. take tis take tt. but veri funni lah. haha.. in e end his mummi still got return me e money. went to airport to fetch mummi. we were early so we went to walk around. we went to viewin mall c planes. so nice~ dar hungry again so we makan BK. finali saw mummi le!! miz her to bits. poor mummi ill again.

sAT

went to meet julie cos she wan me pei her study. so we went to e void deck of dar's granny's block cos his grandpa bdae so hafta go makan later. in e end julie nvr reali study cos we ask her come up play mahjong. wahaha.. den she still makan wif us. i keep givin her food till her bowl like nvr empty at all. lolx.. she aso last to finish sia. tink she super paiseh. wahaha..

2005-10-10T13:43:00.000-07:00

sAT

wai po cremating todae. so alot of rituals goin on. nvr in my whole life did i see my mum cry till so sad.. seems like er jie, ah boy & me were affected too so, we cried too. it jus hurts me to see her cry lah. though i owaes quarrel wif her, i cant imagine one dae she's gonna leave me. peepz treasure yr mum!!

wanna thx dar for accompanyin me throughout the whole songka. when i cried u wept away my tears. when i'm sad, u hug me & comfort me, promising to be owaes be by my side. jus wanna thank you for everything.

sUN

went to find gan ma at hougang. so nice of her to treat me & dar makan. she still gif me money sia. omg omg.. so paiseh. gan tie more quiet, nvr tok to him at all. den my gan mei mei still e same de, chit chat quite alot. after tt dar & me went to hougang mall walk walk c can buy wat for our 4th month. bought dar a card sayin U STOLE MY HART :)

mummy goin to thailand le. hope she can enoy herself & forget all the unhappy stuff.

mON

went to town wif dar to buy our 4th month present. bought dar a new shirt & jacket to match my jacket. wahaha.. he loves it!! met my jj girl girl to pass her some stuff den went to play billard wif dar. darn!! todae i off form sia. lost both match. blehh.. dar bought me another necklace cos he broke one of my & lost the last one he bought for me.

dar!! nvm if u nvr buy alot of things for me loh. u tink i tat type of materalistic charbo ah?? wan u buy xx necklace, 100 carat diamond or watsoever?? got u can liao lah.. keke.. HaPpI FoUrTh MoNtH. u pig sleepin again!! me love ya lots kk.. noe u love me lots too. we r inseparable, together 24/7 since yr bdae. haha.. machiam liked married le sia.. MuAcKx~

2005-10-06T20:26:00.000-07:00

tUE

my wai po passed away todae. wasnt reali sad cos i'm not reali close to her. in fact.. i was oni sad cos i tink my mum is sad. haiz.. but did ponder to tink tt life is fragile. so i gonna live it like i'm dyin tml. CHOY!! haha.. actuali todae got alot of activities de. got BBQ wif my HTM girls & their men, den got petshop anniversary. den hafta go down for e songka. haiz haiz.. but din reali wanna go for e anniversary cos feels kinda weird loh. i feel like goin back to work but like funni sia. aso duno wat tt tony is tinkin. den now mayb startin own business. haiz haiz.. DILEMA!! e nite was great wif u ppl's company. nice drinkin session. pls meet up real soon ya..

wED

slept till 2+ cos last nite 5am liddat den sleep loh. after tt went to wai po's songka again. dar went wif me. i was like tryin to study dere. lolx.. dar too bad gotta self entertain. haha.. reach dere my auntie still ask me go c e corpse i was like.. wth.... SCARE loh. evenin my another mummy came. wahaha.. so nice of her. piang CRS like siao sia..

tHUr

haven sleep at all since last nite.. cos spend e whole nite studyin for CRS. dar so nice pei me nvr sleep. now he go my house fetch YoYo so i can study but i'm bloggin. lolx.. tire tire......

2005-10-02T11:04:00.000-07:00

todae actuali wanted to go ang mo kio visit ah ma wif daddy, mummy & dar de. in e end, me, mummy & dar went to bugis first to buy animal clipper (for cutting doggies hair) & dar's ipod.

at first i super pek ceh wif my mummy sia.. cos e sun so HOT den she DUNO where e shop is den aso DUNO her fren number who told her where e shop was. OMG!! we jus kept walkin aimlessly round & round. i tink i was kinda fierce jus now den dar keep askin me to cool it. mummy aso bth me so ask us go find e ipod first.

when we searching half way.. she finali found e shop so we WALKED back again. lolx.. on e way i made a bet wif dar. but i LOST!! suppose to lose him my ipod. but..... his mummy hor... sae cannot... so cannot loh.. kekekekeke... tink i sldnt b sturborn & sld trust my dar lah. i'm not owaes rite de. sorry dar. but he beri hao lian jus now loh. blehh...

got e clipper at quite cheap sia.. 75 BUCKS nia. after tat went back to sim lim square to hunt for e cheapest ipod ard. ask till a shop they sae 280 but is BULLSHIT de. in e end duno haf. we were all quite disappointed sia. den 329 de e guy tell us best price 329 e girl sae STOCKOUT. WTH.. dun haf still tell us e price for wat.. -.-!! 330 de JUS SOLD E LAST PIECE. someone kill me!!! finali.. went back to 328 de (initiali din wan buy frm him de cos he beri guai lan. we went back he still luff at us loh. wth wth...) since oni got pink & silver left, dar exchange wif me cos my is blue. den i take pink. keke... all thx to dar i got a new one. reali xie xie ni ai ai.. mummy aso bought me e casin for my pinky which i wanted to buy long ago. xie xie mummy ai ai.

dar sae he actuali wanted to buy either iriver or zen micro de. but cos he hor bu yao lian wan to haf another couple thingy wif me so he chose mini ipod. TAO YAN~~ haha.. MuAcKx..

2005-09-29T02:15:00.000-07:00

todae studied till like 5am liddat den me & dar cycled to e beach to watch sunrise. before goin to the beach we went to my favourite place. keke.. halfway my bike got some prob sia.. but still make it to the beach. played swing while we wait for the sun to rise. sat at the wave breaker there.. listenin to the waves, accompanied by mosquitoes, haha... lookin at the stars up above.. we waited.. finali caught the first glimpse of light..

2005-09-28T11:25:00.000-07:00

todae sux loh..

1. he quarrel wif his mum again. got me in a fix
2. she mistake my post. got shoot for nuts when it's bout someone else tt she dun even noe. it's like cant i tok bout other ppl in my life. omg omg....
3. he's a bloody shit head. i found out something again. opps i did it again huh. reali hate u for tis. dun bullshit n try yr luck e next time. once bitten, twice shy. i will encourage u to tink twice b4 doin anything foolish.

2005-09-27T21:44:00.000-07:00

Haiz.. i reali dun understand y some ppl are liddat. Keep sayin they how pitiful how miserable when watever they sae are juz not goin to help. den keep sayin wun cause pain n trouble to ppl when they are jus bull shitin. initiali can still understand. now it's irritatin. like ban ke lian liddat. WTF.. one moment sae life is great, one moment cursin about life. it's a fair competition. e stronger & better wins.

2005-09-23T08:17:00.000-07:00

2005-09-22T12:00:00.000-07:00

11am> wakey wakey~
12pm> chiong go Harbourfront cos meeting JJ & Ping
1pm> Harbourfront loh niao ga gao. darn cold loh. den Ping haven reach so me n Dar went to buy fruit juice.
1.15pm> Ping finali reach le. so funni she aso wan fruity juice. ^^
1.25pm> JJ girl girl become mei nu wif new hair style & colour reach le. at first cant recognise her cos she todae wear till beri kok. lolx.. she late still dare sae me Late Queen. LOLX!!!!
2.00pm> reach my pizza place. YuMmi~ Dar & me makan Spicy Chicken, JJ makan at home le, Ping makan Subway. makan le we kan ji ki rokok. Ping bua tahan keep siam-in. lolx... still tell her half an hour den can finish. Ping c Dar make O she so amaze. wahaha..
2.39pm> went back TAS for wine tasting
3.00pm> wine tasing session quite ok lah. get to taste 4 diff champagne from Henriot. all quite x de. e toopid uncles behind us keep flirtin wif JJ den still wanna take pic of her thighs when her skirt so short lah. still pour champagne on her. wtf!! bully my girl. Ping drink till seh seh, JJ become ang ku kueh, I'm e sole survivor. muhaha..
5.00pm> went to find Dar at e bus stop. Mr Lee help us take pic cos he sae he nvr take pic of students at e bus stop b4. LOLX.. on e bus & train we took alot alot of photo. i reali reali mean alot. wahaha..
5.45pm> reach somerset, went to Heeren to walk walk den JJ wen to meet her fren, den saw Phi Phi & Delong, saw Ah Yan, saw Ping's fren. went to Paragon den to Fareast. on e way we kept jokin & luffin.. so happi~ at Fareast bought chocolates for they 2 but is Dar suggests de lah.. my Dar so sweet~
7.45pm> walk back to Cine. Ping went to Swensen meet fren, JJ went to WW's hs.
8.30pm> took tickets of The Myth which will oni begin at 9.50pm so went to play billard & pool first. some accident happen when playin pool lah.. keke.. i duno how & y i broke the cue. was tryin to straighten it when it jus PIAH beri loudly. LOLX!!! luckily noone catch me. i quite scare but Dar settle everything. was tinkin jus now...... lucki i got him. :)
9.50pm> caught THE MYTH. not too bad. especiali when is watchin wif Dar. wahaha..
12.00am> no train le so took 14 to Bedok den took cab. Dar no mood cos got guy sms me again. Ah Cu. LOLX!!
1.00am> eat supper wif mummi still chit chat alot wif her. haha..

2005-09-18T10:49:00.000-07:00

TodaE is MiD-AutuMn FestiVal.. So me, YoYo & Dar went to play wif lanterns & yan huo. Like finding back our childhood memories liddat. Keke.. Dar use candles to make X LoVe P. SOoo sweet. MuAcKz..

X LoVe P

YoYo wif Lantern

DaR wif Lantern

2005-09-17T10:45:00.000-07:00

Finali settle e toopid prob le!! Both me & Dar can haf a piece of mind le sia.. Now tat we been thru tis together, guess our relationship haf strengthened too. ^^ Den at nite when Dar sleepin.. I drew something on his back & I'm reali proud of my work. Been long since i last drew tattoo for someone. Keke...

2005-09-15T08:13:00.000-07:00

yesterdae damn suai sia.. me & dar kena con by some idiotic jerk. haiz.. now we hafta settle e prob ourselves liao.. sian sia.. den dar & his mummi keep quarrelin.. shoutin fukin loud at my block. opp block de ppl aso tot wat happen. made me darn scare sia.. bought another box of mooncake for auntie.. ^^

2005-09-14T01:13:00.000-07:00

MeMoRieS oF 3rD MoNtH...

Makan-in at Hans'

CoUpLe HP AcCeSsOriEs I bought for Dar.
It's incomplete though.

fLoWeRs from Dar

tHiRd MoNtH...

2005-09-12T10:25:00.000-07:00

Mornin Dar went back to his house wif Crystal cos they overnite at my house. We went to buy present for each other den meet. Actuali wanted to go Orchard de.. In e end both of us beri lazy. Lolx.. So went to Hans' makan first den Dar went to buy flowers for me at CS den we went to collect my present for him at TM. Afterwhich, we went to play pool & billard. Keke.. We still went to buy mooncakes for both our in-laws. ^^

2005-09-12T10:16:00.000-07:00

Yeah~ Got new fone le!! Den dar aso went to buy new fone. He purposely choose same as me de brand. We both using SAMSUNG. My is E530C his is E730. Crystal aso usin my fone. Same model same colour. CoOL...

2005-09-08T02:59:00.000-07:00

Finali came to blog.. tis few daes reali busy wif exams. Den aso cos no mood to blog. Now slackin awhile before back to studyin.. hmmm.. forgave him le.. but will nvr forget though. sorry~ yeah man.. tml last dae of exams den celebrating 3rd mth wif Dar. But still troubled bout my CRS exam. tink my mum buyin new fone for me todae!! WEE~ orange Samsung e530c. waitin for her to come home!!!! xD

2005-09-01T09:30:00.000-07:00

Reali happi tt Wei Lian won the title of Jue Dui Superstar. Was beri touched by him, my mum was too. Shed a drop of tears by wat he achieved. Though he's blind, he still managed to reach his dream..
But i guess sometimes, being able to c is not a good thing too. U get to c e ugly world. e ugly people. Get to c things that will hurt u, that will make u cry. I saw something that i do not wanna c jus now. Something tt made me cried. Dun sae anything.. Dun sae sorry.. Cos u do not noe how i feel. I jus wanna b alone now. I dun understand y, I dun wanna hear explainations. I trust noone but myself now.

2005-08-31T10:47:00.000-07:00

Todae studied at Dar's hs again~ Den me cooked fried rice for him for lunch. Dar like dark dark one & we reali cooked e rice till reali black black. Tink i put too much water le cos e rice too sticky liao. But still edible lah.. At nite Dar's mummi ordered pizza! YuMmI~ Me eat alot sia.. Reach hm kip exercising. keke..
Er Jie baked Rum Cake!! Not bad sia.. Me kip pinchin to eat. Dar aso quite like e cake. Den now me n Dar both stomachache!! Duno isit cos of e fried rice or the pizza or the cake. HAHA.. Tink most prob is my rice lah. Sorry Dar~
Dar hungry again~ Aiyo.. He like pig sia. Kip eatin.. haha.. we makan den go back study le.. Buai~

2005-08-30T09:43:00.000-07:00

These 2 daes damn guai sia.. Kept on studyin wif DAR. He wanted me to include his name too. aha.. wan me sae him guai aso. But we reali got study lah.. Dar cut hair again.. But me like him previous hair beta. Haha.. Nvm nvm.. Will grow back de.

Todae is e 3rd dae in tis week i overnite at Dar's hs. Abit sad cos my mummi is sick den i go home like oni take money from her nia. But nvm, cos Dar sae holidae will pei my mummi de. Will play mahjong wif her till she seh.. Lolx.. Thank q u Dar! Muackz..

We watching DVD den study again. Chiong ah~

2005-08-28T10:02:00.000-07:00

Todae damn guai sia... Studied e whole dae at Dar's hs. From wake up to like 5+ pm. Den Dar, Crystal & me went to play bball awhile before we go 802 makan wif my mother-in-law. Lolx.. Dar ask me go register... -.-!! chua sai~

A MEAL WHICH MADE US SICK!!! All becos of Dar & his toopid idea to order e medium lala.. made us wanna vomit sia.. like Mount Everest liddat. Plus i sore throat & e lala darn spicy sia.. Like can nvr finish liddat. But e frog leg tt dAR's mum order nicey nicey. went hm straight away vomit, reali too full le.

Dar finally bear to eat e cookie from me le. Wahaha.. Before tt he still took e cookie's last complete photo. HAHA.. Now me & dAR wanna go kun le.. Buai~

2005-08-28T09:57:00.000-07:00

DaR wif My Ai Xin CoOkiE

2005-08-27T17:49:00.000-07:00

Dar... Dun worry if I've forget about him already anot k? My mind is full of someone already. Till dere's no room for anyone else le. No more toking to guys i dun know on msn, no more going out wif guys, no more sms-in my exs, no more of those nonsense le. Like I tell u, y sld i still like someone who doesnt like me before & hurt someone tt loves me & i love so much rite? I still wanna marry & celebrate yr bdae wif u till i lost count u how old de leh. :) I'm trying to not tink too much le. I jus wanna believe that u wun leave me like i wun leave u. MuAcKz...